seriously idiotic

What If ....

Long long time ago I wrote a blog ...
When I missed blabbering in words a lot ...
Now I am here to fill another slot ...
Lets not then get carried away with that

Did that rhyme ? Or it is just your imagination ... hmmm ... hard to tell ... well I always want to be a poet who write adventurous stories about a detective who fall in love with dramatic killer ... sorry that didn't sound right ... because its really hard to understand ... but if you see it as a feasible thing then don't ... it is just a mix of things, I once wanted to be ... not now ... now I have other things to do ... in between I also had thought of things to do which were very different from these ... if you are not following what i am telling, then just forget and read on ... what i want to say here like many people i wanted different things at different times ... but yes somethings happened, some never did ... but I moved on to next set of things I would like to do ... Its not that I left them because of under-achievement ... it's sometimes because the things lost their charm in the way, better goals popped up ... goals which may not be better, let say brighter friendlier etc etc ... but always I think what would have if I could achieve one of them and lived a life different from this one (its like talking about 11 dimensions) ... it's not that this life is bitter or worse in any way ... but it surely would have been different that way ... like i always wanted to quit my first job ... but didn't for 4 years .. what if I had quit in my rookie days or 2 years after that ... i could have never come to Seattle or USA ... would have never learned skiing or drove to the black hills of South Dakota ... it could have been that I went to UK and developed a british accent and drove cars on the other side ... What if I was offered a great job at my hometown, I might have never left for the world and see places far from my home ... next in life could have been just get married and lived in the hometown like my parents did ... what if I had cared about my cgpa in college a lot more and pursued my research career ... no I didn't, just been a good one and joined the industry into the mess ... there are so many "what if" in life to think about ... but I will stop here ... "what if" gives the thrill of being what you are ... sometimes it might make you feel low, but you should remember that every direction, every path has its own feelings, happiness n ironies ... so living this life like it is the chosen one for me ... I fit here better than any other life (for the time being :))

posted by foobar @ 10:39:00 PM